Today was honestly the best day that I could have gone back. My goal was yesterday, but I wasn't in the right mindset. Today, I kicked ass at work, accomplished more than I possibly thought I could, and had a vision in my head of who was going to be on that punching pad tonight. It completely exhausted me, which hopefully translates into a full night of sleep for me. Truly couldn't have been in a more perfect frame of mind for it.
I was so, so, so freaking nervous....it was almost worse than when I moved halfway across the country. I was more nervous than when I went to my first class. Why? Because after a month of pretty much wanting to die every class I went to (multiple times, even), I was finally making progress. I could do 25 pushups without stopping, even the ridiculous triangle ones (tonight I managed 15). I still haven't quite gotten the hang of bear crawls - though they were always the hardest for me....stupid long limbs...
I think I only wanted to die, really honestly give up, once. I know full well I'm going to feel like a 90 year old lady by Thursday, but I'm proud of what I accomplished tonight. I only have three skinned knuckles, but they're all the right ones - note to future self, bring your wraps with you next time. I'm shooting for the Saturday class as my next one, as I don't think I'll be ready for Thursday. I know it'll take time to get back to where I feel comfortable, but I'm really excited about tonight.
The great thing about Krav is that literally anyone can do it. I was a little intimidated by the kid in our class tonight, dude had more energy in his arm than I have in my whole body!! But seriously, anyone, any age, any body type, anyone willing to put in the effort (and it's a LOT), can learn this. Truly.
So, a year from now (barring further injury - yes, I learned my lesson about mechanical bulls!), I should be able to kill you with my bare hands. Not that I'd want to, of course, but I could. So don't mess with me.
